Back again and I may have made a mistake or very good decision I got into Baylor college of medicine for treatment and backed out, I recently went on a trip to calm my nerves and meet my moms friend who got a puppy for me who I love so much and has done wonders for my moods, I am halfway normal so to speak. I realized Texas is not for me, I used to say I was born here I will die here and I lost the zest for that saying, The trip showed me something, I wanted more in life than being crammed in a city with a losing sense of adventure, Visiting a huge state park made me realize how much I loved nature and I was calm for the first time in a long time, no mood swings, paranoia, and i could just breathe and think it was nice.
So I don't really know how it came about but the idea of moving to Oklahoma came into my head My grandparents grew up there and its kind of like a connection to them and I just liked the idea, I loved the idea of awesome changes in weather to, I have always been a storm chaser hurricanes, lightning, and one tiny tornado but would love to be a part of that world again, I cannot stand being stagnant. I don't know where the future leads but I love the idea of starting over and they have public transportation so I can be more independent that's what I want so bad. So until I know more that's about all, I am thankful for feeling better and going to take this as a blessing and enjoy every minute!
